Fourth day at kuala kangsar

Around 3AM

mummy suddenly want eat supper

so accompany her eat~

also with my cousin and my uncle lor~

 we eat a plate of fish ball and vegetable 

and a plate don no wat ~

cause i don have eat that !

then 

before we go supper 

I sneak out take a ride^^

find my friend "king gai"

happy leh~

but let them buli awhile

lolx~

^^

anyway is happy~

don care they how to think me

I just care how i think mmyself!!

then 

I fetch my friend to his friend house

haha~

very happy and funny

cause I ride very fast to scare him~

haha

remind his face~~

hahaha~

really~very funny~

what a moment...

I hope can stay longer then i though~

but~

I know is won`t` came true

JUST IMAGINE..

Third day at kaula kangsar

Third day

yesterday me and my sis go for a spin

Unconsciously.... 

I ride to my friend`s hours area

so...

my friend suddenly block my way~

Fortunately～

I braked!!!

then 

he ask me chat with him~

ok lu~just awhile

and I meet a friend^^

his nickname call kayang bao~

Cute right?

He`s my brother friend!!

hehe~

Actually...

We all know each other

just din`t seriously chat

yesterday we chat a lot!!

He told me my brother tell him

how bad I am or naught...

YES!!I`m` specking bad and naught

so wat??this is ME!!

I also donno when I chance like that?

3AM（around）

Me,my sis,my two cousin and my uncle

go makmak~

^^

I saw a guy looks familiar...

firstly~

I don care about how~

Slowly...

my sis tell me he is my friend——dou fu(nickname)XD

I see clearly~

He is my friend~

He seems want to say hello to me~

but 

I scare I make mistaked...

cause we really have long time din`t see

so i look other side then

look back~

YES!!!

I`m sure he is my friend!!TOO late...

din`t` have a change to say Hi!

haiz~

Today~

just sleep and sleep

drink water

drink coconut

drink 100plus

help bou bou(she is a dog )take shower

that`s all

second night at kaula kangsar~

Second night!

Just came back from relative`s house

Haha~got ang bao take 

but not more...

When arrive I riding motor find my friend~

erm...

I not really find him just pass his house

then my friend saw me~

then he call me trun back his house BBQ

LOLX~

I told him just go his house awhile!

cause I donno anybody at there

just some~hehe

(litter mean is we know each other but we no talk long time ago)

Then 

 things that do not want to always appear in front of me

always happen!!

yes!!

I should not wearing lans today!

because I saw you!!

I saw you withing your gf

I`m fine

you`re with ur gf

cause we`re pass tense

maybe is our past...

but

I hope we can continue be friends~

maybe I`m greedy~

however....hope you happy!!

To: My friends of kuala kangsar

Just now I riding motor around vallage～

I saw u too~

more then twice!!

our eyes have never had the transfer...

because???

because wat??

you din`t see or we become unfamiliar??

maybe YES!!

hiaz~come on!!

let it go~

in this world~

FORGET

is general~

used to get!!

second day at kaula kangsar~

Hello~today is the second at here~

lolx~

Quite bored here~

hehe~

Yesterday I around 4.30only sleep~

wakakaka~

Actually~I want overnight~

But

Scare my mom suddenly sport check~

lol~

So....

shut down computer walk back my bed room 

And

look the ceiling until sleep~

When I wake up is 7something~

Haiz~

donno why so early wake up???

I donno how to live today!!

cause yesterday I forget or make mistake ~

I leave my beg a my grandma(father) house

= ="what the....

LUCKY~

here still have 2 sets of cloth 

and is not my size too~

no idea jor~

if not I have to wait my mom`s nephew came back!!

goodness~this afternoon damm hot!!

no choose!must take shower>.<"

the cloth quite....narrow

still can wear!!!haiz~~poor~

ii also donno why i so forgetful!!

LOOK~

no light~

haha~poor day!

At kuala kangsar living habits...

This evening I arrive Kuala Kangsar!

Kuala Kangsar is my grandmother`s house～（mom）...

so~

the first thing is go find my old friend~

cause tomorrow she leave here back to KL...

so gathering awhile~

then tomorrow meet again then 

is time to say good bye!!

Let`s wrote back～

today I hurt someone who care me~

I din`t mean it to hurt him~

but....

somethings must be clearly~if not....

the mistake will  be worst~

so~

I really feel so to you~

  Please forgive me!!

Finally~

feel better now~

just now meet back my friend at Kuala Kangsar~

he change a lot~

handsome jor~

but still smoking~bad!!

Anyway is happy to meet back him~

cause we really long time no see~

wish he happy lar~

Just now he told me~

he will back KL tomorrow or today~

so wish him good luck!

And also hope can meet back all Kuala Kangsar friend soon~

Happy New Year~ 

New Year Again~

今天不知道怎么了~我的心很伤心！！

是朋友？还是家人？

虽然说新年 可是我一点新年的气氛也感觉不到！

是...公公不在了还是~我还是在怀念你？？

你又是谁？？

心理的疑问总是那得多！

我到底想怎样？？

公公的离开到现在我还是无法接受！

面对现实是应该的！

但~我还是很想躲在我的记忆里！

因为有你在~

昨天我打给婆婆~问好！

我用尽所有方法让婆婆开心~

可是~我失败了~

从电话里听出婆婆是没有心情听我说话~

可能在想念公公吧~

毕竟都相处那么多年~他的离开~

足以让婆婆~伤心一辈子吧！

是我低估婆婆的愈合能力~还是我高估自己？？

最近来时看到朋友为感情而烦！

甚至~差点也把自己的性命一起堵上！

感情？真的那么重要吗？？

重要得过自己的性命？？

是我 把感情看得儿戏还是我不想把感情看得太重？？

是因为我~.......

还是另有原因？？？

hehe~想想我多久没写了？？

一写就疑问多多！！

haiz~我怎样阿？？

心理十分挣扎~><

我该怎么办？？

累也累过~

烦也烦过~

哭也哭过~

我还能怎样？？

放弃一切~可能是做好的选择！！

新的一年我竟然要这样过！！

祝福吧！

Hello~~I`m back~haha~now my class is S1F&B~~
Wakakak~~so happy man...so lucky~^^
and very happy all my friend straight so senior one~but some cannot~got litter bit~
Study 2 weeks jor~~very tired lor~cause my course is learn how to baking...how to cook...design(for food)...and how to cut more lar~~when is the class always want to stand~~4 period my leg all most broke><...do back home still want quarrel with stupid mother~~ haiz~PAI MIA~
this year my school fee very expensive~~RM510~so I hope my dad let me go out work just in holiday~cause the fee is very expensive~so I hope I can help my dad share some annoyance~working I can learn more about cooking other side I can ern money pay my school fee~but my dad don give~~haiz~~wat the antique

Hello~how long i don have write my blogger??it has been very long time~~^^so happy today can write leh^^
N today is my friend birthday leh ~wish him happy birthay lar~^^
i was have a dream...is happen in this few day~i dream i suddenly got a son!ant his name call Kyan~at the dream i was very surprise~== very funny itz??and he grow very fast~suddenly he like 3 years old and he know talk ,jump~and more~and then i wake up~so many day i still feel he is beside me~>< so do i happy??
to day is Christmas~hope all my friend happy marry Christmas~~
good luck~
Oya~I take my UEC result jor~^^okok lu ~all pass except my math>< get E leh~nvm lar~not just me take E XP!!!I SURE MY FRIEND ALSO SAME AS ME!! Math get E de !!hahaha XP!!
GOOD LUCK GUYS~

成绩出炉了~我留级！！有些成绩虽然是还没有输入！！
但是...也不应该留吧？？？我看了一位同学的成绩！
他也是一样还有一些成绩未输入 可是他一进升班了！！
怎么办？？
我开始害怕了~怎么办？？  我今年可以说很努力的读书了咯！！
为什么还是留呢？？虽然一些成绩未输入~还是有点希望！可是这希望...会不会太小了呢？？很累啊！
星期四就是成果展！ 现在大家都在积极的准备这个星期四的成果展~
是很难~但还是尝试！
心好乱哦~升不到办><  我要怎那么办？？ 好累哦！！
最近不知道有什么压力~
一直拼命吃东西来减压力...
哈哈~
是不是很白痴叻？？
我也这么觉得...
哈哈
嗨~
生活在怨言之下~
一定活的要生要死的咯~
唯有一天算一天啦！！
哈哈~笑一笑没什么大不了吧！！
perfect!!so good luck for me!wish I can strange go senior 1....

How long I did write my blog??
haha~~
I think~I have long time no write my blog~
haiz~
Finally~UEC is finish by yesterday~its feel good...but in the time i feel strange~I also donno wat happen~><
Maybe i`m crazy??or wat!! now I at cc with friend~I`m late to go back home!! but in the time I don want so fast go back home!!go back home is tired~ but with my friend.... it will tired at least my tired is happy~ ha~~ 
I very tired~n very annoying~
I want to work but my parents don let me~??
I want celebrate farewell junior three also cannot~lol~seizzz~to leaving in this world! 

helo~today is Thursday~N yesterday is art exam~
so worry about it~
cause other subject result is very bad~
bad then last time~hope my art can save me~
Now i really annoying about next year if i can go senior 1 wat course i want choose~
well~I think now is not the time to think~
now what I want to do is focus at my stupid UEC exam~
hiaz~~
the final exam result is not good~
SHIT~
the result is terrible!!!Is bad then last time~
I wonder am I fooling around  so that my result get badly and badly~
How I going face my UEC exam??
I really worrt about it~  If I did "shen ban"(means straight go senior one ) then I really can kill myself~
This month I really can`t focus at my book~
My brian always think for nothing~is very stupid~is impossible things~
haha~
fine lar~already pass tense~ poof...pass off~
Let`s talk about yesterday~  
Yesterday the art~
cham lor~
some rae easy some are hard~
aiya~
art only mah~
UEC wok harded lor~
hehe~

最近不懂吃错什么药~动不动就生气还是伤心...
嗨~
毕业考刚考完不久...再多两个星期就统考~压力好大哦~加上最近又多东西烦~又睡不好~有一时想不开~一只吃东西~哎丫丫丫丫~~~~残拉~~肥肥拉~~等考完试就去减肥咯~再不减肥，吃点就变肥婆每人要了咯~
哈哈~几旧米有写BLOG了~
就随便代过最近发生的事
星期四考完试就跟朋友去TS看他们打机我就在那里等他们
过后就走路回校~路途中奕俊那个傻佬在路边走cat walk~那个屁股摇到几厉害阿~过后荣、洛、维、耀、俊几个傻佬一起走猫不猫的猫步~笑死我！！哈哈哈
走到学校又去喝下茶！
然后回家~

昨天~6点多就起床了~N 去学校~
爸爸送我到LRT station~到了P.R就找俊吃早餐~
然后回校上下学会就走人~
找俊~我等到他11、12点多~等到想睡觉~赫赫
他说他和教练一起喝茶~我没意见~就一起去咯~
喝完茶就陪他们回校但是没有到校拉~只是到附近....过后就走回车站搭LRT 回家~
累死了咯~


P.S  之前有人跟我妈妈打小报告~不知道那个人是谁~那么多嘴~三姑六婆这样~没有的东西都讲到有~我对你很失望~你在我心目中的形象已经被你的{多嘴}毁掉~~我很讨厌你~~

昨天你对我说的话是要我学会提防人还是跟他们都一样?

我做了什么?为什么要这样对我~

唯一的信任都没了…

听了你这样说…

心好痛　真的很痛！

5年了…认识5年了…

今天才说？

为什么就不早点说…

心真的很痛很酸…

我不是以前的我了！

5年了…年头才说有什么事都有你在…

你会陪我得…我从你离开我后就不停的想…

过马路差点被撞…

（你一定觉得我很好笑！

天真到别人说什么就信道到足！）

我想得都是你对我说的话！

到家了…

必须装没事不能让家人看不起，不能让婆婆担心

心平抚2个小时,可是每当想回就哭了~

呵呵~

我看只有我那么天真还会对朋友那么得相信…

为什么我就不学你说得“朋友是那来出卖的”为什么你做到，我就做不到?

心都碎到变粉碎了~

我的人生有必要这样么？

没颜色？

阿公啊…你来带我走好么？我愿意陪你…

心又痛又酸…

跟最爱分都没那么惨…哈哈……

真是笨蛋还看不出你身边是没朋友的吗？

小姐起床咯…最

值得信任的都不要理你了咯…醒咯！

 

你是在骗我的，对吗？

你是为了我好才这样说的对吧？？

今天你对我真的很冷啊~就像今早的天气一样冷~

不喜欢这样！

不喜欢！！

心里总是放不下你曾经对我的好...
我不知道选择跟你分开是否对还是错!
但我还是希望我的选择是对的！
我不想你，因为我而耽误工作！
我也没想到我的选择~
会领到彼此从此不能做回朋友！
如果是这样~
那选择接受和拒绝时~
我会选择我拒绝！
一来大家还是朋友~
二来打击就不会那么伤了对吗？
这是希望时间真的能够倒流！
我知道是不可能的！不选都选了咯！那就继续走下去吧！！
现在的蔡素心不再是单纯的她！
不再是别人说什么她就做什么的她！
也不会是别人说什么就相信别人的她！！！
她不再是以前的她！至少她比以前长大了一点！！
因为到现在的蔡素心还是不敢接受现实的世界！还是活在虚幻的世界里！或许真正的她还是需要时间去慢慢的接受！！
我也发现我自己变了！！
没有他的陪伴总觉得少了什么！
一名为放不下就选了~
跟男生朋友做兄弟！
不做朋友！！
这样或许是我能唯一骗过自己那关！
现实世界真的很残忍！！
要接受我从来不想接受的事实~！
我很讨厌现实世界的残忍！
虚幻的至少还会留一些些的情面！！
这个世界不是我想象中的那么好，不是我想象中的和平，不是想象中的完美！
我希望朋友能够开心！但是朋友一点都不开心！
我希望家人能够和平！但是家人一点都不和平！
我希望班上能够合作！但是班上一点都不合作！
我希望我能够找到爱我的人！但是我错过了2次！
我希望我的家人能够一起生活，一起快乐下去，不要有丧礼的时候~
但是是不可能的！

现实世界~不是我进入的！因为~我接受不到现实世界的残忍！

long time did write my blogger!!

so wat i want ti say??my exam came again~

haiz~

this is the last time....which means~

this is my last chance to backup...==!

haiz~~lol~this week~i

 very sad n easy get headache!!

long time did use English write blog~

hehe~

hello~my friends r in blog de~how r u ??

really donno want to say wat!

cause all i want 2 say also say in facebook!my phone cant sign in jor~poor lor!!

 wat i can do leh??haiz~

now i in ipoh!!!my disposition like big changes~

i like to play music...like violin.  hehe~

Actually i know how to play violin de~not really good,but at list i konw how to play~

ha!

hope i can maintained until i die~that day!!

公公离开我有一个星期多了~

我又让他失望了~考试成绩出炉了！我的成绩没有比以前好~

haiz~my feel myself so useless~ nth can do better!lol~hate!!

yesterday our school 举办 月光晚会~my brother n me go back school a while~then we go MC buy dinner(my brother dinner)the we by bus go ts~gai gai a while~we at ts met chow yang!!so good!!i thought no ppl at ts jor~

------------------------------pass--------------------------------

later~chow yang n my brother go snooker ~until 9.more litter then go home by LRT!~

when go back home gor gor  promises before he must brought a cup "STARBUCK" 

then we go home lo~

finish~

最后一面！

昨天放学后~喝下茶-回家！

7点载哥哥~

大概8点去吃 晚饭然后回婆婆家！

回来后~一下~

就进公公房间陪陪他和阿嫲！

过后~去睡觉。

------------------------------

4.15分！我~最近爱的公公离开了我！

大家都哭成泪人~

而我~应该是最没用那个吧~

无法接受事实~选择逃避~

去睡觉！

可是说醒后还是要面对~

结果还是选择面对！

我万万没想到这次回来真的要跟公公说“再见”

公公去世前二婶和姑姑各打给二叔和三叔！

从电话听到~大家都哭成泪人！

直到~天亮了~

我的眼睛肿肿的！很难打开！

我还是打开了！

10.39分

三叔，二叔，佩佩和堂哥到了~

我~第一次看到一向坚强的二叔，三叔~

当场哭成泪人！

心都酸了起来~

阿嫲呢~

从阿公离开的那一刻就不停地流泪~

大家的眼泪一时哭一时听~

很难控制！！

无论如何...阿公走到很安详！还有微微笑的~

大家看了~眼泪又再次的流下~

谁都痛~但阿嫲的痛没有人比得上！

希望我有能力照顾婆婆！

我很想对公公说~

“你要安心哦~

我会帮忙照顾所有兄弟妹！

不用挂心~

安心的离开吧~

公~下辈子我蔡素心愿意继续当你的掌上明珠~

愿意继续陪伴你~

但是，我更想当你的妈妈~

因为这一世你受苦了~

下一世由我给你幸福，快乐~

不让你再受苦~

而我爸爸就是你的爷爷~好吗？

下辈子~等着你~”

谢谢你的安详告诉我们您已经到达了天堂~

再见！

我爱你~

爱你一辈子~

 我会永远想念你~

把你记在我的心里~

first time stay at friend`s house

today i wake up not early but still in morning!

hihi~ 

b cause yesterday i very later sleep~something 2 o`clock~

hehe~

just came back from breakfast!

I eat nasi lemak~

the nasi lemak is suck~

err~~

first eat so XXXX lo~

behind my school de mamak is better then his~

so miss my house~

but at here also got good thing 4 me~

that is i can Internet here~

at my house just only can watch tv or listen song~

haiz~tomorrow want exam again jor~~

hate it !!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yesterday forget to write where we go 

when morning until afternoon 2~30 o`clock!
yesterday me,Alvin,yi junz,&feng qing...

when starting is study history 4 history~

but how we memories still can`t remember it!

so we plane today is rest day then we go ts watch movie~

junz want watch a movie is below 18~

we bought the ticket!then time is 12.10am when we go the cinema

the worker want us prove we r 18~

so he call us let he c our ic~

if 4 of us the 1 is 18 then we can go in ~

but all of us just~16/15 how we prove it?

so we lie~

i say i forget bring my ic them also~

the worker say~

"u keluar tak bawa ic bunya?"

"we just came ts only want bring ic 4 wat?din go where also..."

the worker".... kalau tak boleh prove u r 18 i  just can help u change movie"

hiaxx~

wat can we say?

then just change lor~

who call we just 15/16~

lol~=="

then we change to "salt"

the time start at 12.40am~

me n feng qing 2o`clock must go home 

the movie is nice but i quite 

disappointed~

the last part we did c then go home~

hiaxxx~

but is fun lar~haha~

~end~

hello~
exam again lor~but exam fast finish jor~

until next Thursday finish lor~

next Monday exam history yor~

when history period i also sleeping de~

cause toooo seinzzz~~

haiz~even history exam waat also don no~

c~very pro leh~~

wakaka~

when the result came out more pro~

study from 3 again~

that time i really damm lorrrrr~

currently~i very cham lor~

fat jor o~~stomach big big jor~

nit really big lar~

haha~

just now msn find bao bei(xiiao mei) ~

bao bei told me she is sad~

my heart so pain~don no how to take care her~

haiz~~

bao bei don cry jor~

sushi very sum tong~long tim3 chat~

just now the first chat~

then u cry o~

wat can i do???

bao bei don cry jor~

if u still not happy u can fine me de~ok??

=========================================

exam exam exam exam~

hate it!!

lol~

but at least i prove it myself~

wat learn this year~

ha~

GANBATIK!!

好险哦~

昨天公公差点就离开了~

吓得大家~

= =

昨天~晚上啊嘛看到二叔他们回来就进房间告诉公公...

可是~婆婆在叫他时~

尽然没反应...

吓得她大喊说“啊公不会应人令了！你们快点进来！”

我一听到就马上跑进房间~

眼泪都快掉出来了！

一进到去~

...............

公公就转过来~

突然看到那么对人在房间~

他~

吓了一下下~

然后....

很可爱的问我们什么事~

= = 

我真的给他扎到咯！！

嗨~

宝贝公公~

以后不要这样啦！会吓死人哒！

那颗心~

都快吓出来了~

= =

真的很怕会失去公公~

呜呜呜~

公公~

今天我要回kl了~

你要多吃东西啊！

你放心~

我会乖！

如果~

你真的时间到了~

你就安心的走吧~

不要挂心呀~

知道吗？？

要记得哦~